A place for my head...
…words, images, and song.
Even I…
Sep 18th
…am curious of where I’ve been lately. Since returning back to the land of corn and cows, there seems to been little to report. Despite the fact I am busy non-stop. I did replace my truck with a new car, it’s quite nice. I finally went and had a good time in Cleveland. Helped my dad work on his “pond” (that should be called lake). Of which… I need to call… they’ve been quiet again. Aside from that, it’s been work work work.
Perhaps my life is missing a muse once again? I usually write the most when I’m infatuated, or furious…. rarely when I’m complacent and almost bored. In good time… I do know I’m a pretty big jerk when it comes to dealing with women I’m not into. Tactful and gentle doesn’t seem to work… so I go the immature ignoring route and that doesn’t help either. How does one get the hint through? Wait, isn’t there a book out there for this? Oh yeah! He’s Just Not That Into You
Nothing lost, nothing gained…
Aug 9th
Sometimes we shoot for the stars, fall short, get back up and fire again. It’s funny how different goals or aspirations can change the magnitude at which one will strive to get there. Perhaps it’s the simple complexity thrown into the mix… “we don’t have control of all things”.
We often long for that which we’re already certain we cannot obtain. Yet, day after day we may go out of our way to try. These, I know all too well, are the most disappointing. Which is ironic, since we already knew the outcome. Or perhaps these are the things that have the most emotional value? If I bust my ass for months to make more money, and fall short, I’m not heart broken… for I loathe money.
At the end of the day though… if we’ve lost nothing… gained nothing, and still had fun… I’m going to call that a good day. May seem to float along the path of mediocrity, but better to fail… and come out smiling.
Despite all I say and do to convince myself I’m happy in life… where the hell is the sunshine for this dog’s ass?
Days go by…
Jul 18th
I’ve always been easily distracted, and the past 2 months have been no exception to that rule. Between the exorbitant amount of work I’ve engulfed myself into, and the pleasure of spending time with my long time friends… it’s been incessant!
So what’s new? Well hrm… I bought an old VW Cabriolet to fix up for an investment, it’s nearly ready to sell. I’ve began the battle against debt, it’s go time on that one. I laid down a friends motorcycle, being retarded… (read that doing a rolling burnout). He fortunately wasn’t upset with me… I will make it right with him. Have to love good friends.
After many years of wanting to, I finally sat down and had a hole punched in both ears. Not that I needed anymore holes in my head, but the earings fill the void quite well. Although my parents found it a great reason to cast judgment upon me. I’m sure they’ll talk to me again someday…. I’ll wait.
Did I mention I’ve been working a lot? Was hoping to have a short day today, but that proved once again a lost cause. With the hour drive each way, it seems all I get done is work… and sleep. More so than ever. I’ll be working from home tomorrow, so that will be a nice break from the office. Crank up the stereo, and kick back with the laptop while sipping some iced tea.
Speaking of sipping… after indulging a bit too much once again last week… I’ve gone a week now without having a sip. I actually am a bit adamant about laying off the juice for a while too. I’m sure I’ll break sooner or later, but in the mean time… I’m better off if I don’t.
Well my 2 minutes of time to write has passed… I’m going to gather my things and get the flock out of here.